It's been a tough day!

Ooofff....today has been a toughy. I took a couple of days off of work (this mumma is tired and needed a minute before I broke...) and I return to work to find I have lost my whole bonus I have worked all month for. After initially getting really upset about it and lashing out at my manager about it - guilt filled me up and I have been feeling icky all day since. I already halved my hours in order to keep a foot in both camps. Be employed and keep my wfh job ticking over, and also be with my baby (and juggling her with others, but ultimately present). I bank on my bonus every month. I rely on it. So to see it wiped out because I needed a mental health break - it feels like I've just made it worse. It's true what they say - society holds productivity in higher regard, than wellbeing. I guess this is a post to the working mums that are just doing what they can to keep things going, when sometimes it feels like you're getting no where. Keep going. Fingers crossed for a bonus next month 🫠