Incognito cuz I’m just ranting

So I’m due in less than a week, I did a membrane sweep at my appointment last week, another one yesterday, and so far nada. Next week we have to go in for a NST because we’ll be at 40 weeks to which I’ll likely request another sweep. If I hit 41 weeks it’s 2 NSTs a week but our doctor is an hour away. If I hit 42 weeks I’m opted out of where and how I want to birth which is an in hospital birthing center with a water birth no medical intervention. My son is as an induction at 37 weeks at just shy of 10lbs, this one’s measuring even bigger than he was which I know can and is usually off, but wasn’t with my son. I’m scared about his size, I’m just over it. Fundal height is measuring 42 weeks since 37 weeks, no contractions, barely dilated, I’m so over being pregnant and this little nugget is comfy as can be in there! I’ve tried walking did 3 miles a few times now, pumping, membrane sweep twice, red raspberry leaf tea, sex, mile circuit, the only thing I haven’t done is anything with a yoga ball because I don’t have one. I’m over it, I’m low-key pissed, and I’m fucking exhausted. 🙃 that’s all rant over