It’s a lot to process when you’ve been through a whole pregnancy anticipating this moment and it’s literally taken away from you at the last moment. Just remember you couldn’t have done anything differently and you’ve been the perfect home for him for the last 9 months and meeting him will still be super special just a different version of what you pictured x
You can still naturally deliver a breech baby if that's what you want to do, do some reading around it xx
With my last birth I had placenta previa but the whole way through pregnancy I was told my placenta would almost definitely move and I just didn’t process the fact that it potentially wouldn’t. I had to have a section at 36 weeks exactly because I kept bleeding and there was no way I could give birth vaginally and I was devastated. I still find his birth hard to talk about, even looking at photos from the day and his NICU stay are hard for me. I’m so overwhelmingly grateful that he arrived safely and he’s perfect but I definitely have trauma surrounding his birth. I didn’t handle the feelings well at all and had really bad postnatal depression because I felt guilty admitting that I felt so upset about a situation that ultimately brought me my son so I bottled it all up for about a year before I spoke to my GP and ended up doing talking therapy. Talk about it as much as you need to and try to make the section as personal as possible. Don’t feel guilty at all for feeling like this!