Definitely not alone in those feelings! I’m 24 weeks with number two and still have those thoughts and feelings. I know it’s only temporary for now and it will eventually get better but it is debilitating and it’s scary and I’m sorry you’re feeling that way also:/
Oh my gosh I was the same babe I told the midwives and got referred for cbt up until the end and actually emailed my therapist shortly after my Csection to let her know I was indeed alive 😂 I’m still like it now even with my girl here healthily I question everything and am so paranoid of suddenly becoming poorlie! Just know you’re not alone and reach out for support from your midwives!