My partner / father of unborn child has been awful to me and we’ve had so many issues from day 1 of the pregnancy. We had been off and on for nearly a decade and became pregnant the week we reconciled this time. I don’t know what to think or do anymore because I can’t keep anything straight. He will apologize and make changes and 1-4 weeks later go back to belittling, degrading and spinning everything on me. He says he has a problem with drinking / drugs so I offer support and he went to AA and finally went to therapy after I tried to get him to go for a year. He also refused to do couples therapy but has now done one session with me for the baby. We had a fight 2 weeks ago and the next day I found hidden drugs and alcohol. I left for a week and stayed with family. I came home and he promised to get help apologized and was so great for a week and now the cycle is repeating. Speaking to me awfully blaming me for everything and it’s at the point where I feel crazy and don’t know what’s true and what’s a lie anymore.
I’m feeling all the emotions right now so I hope that makes sense. Looking to see if anyone has been through something similar or can offer advise. I am about to leave him.