This Mama lives for Jesus!

This isn’t on topic but can I ask. I’ve found basic text from escorts to my husband saying ‘Outcalls only bbe, if u would like a outcall send me postcode n i will tell u the price ect xx’, ‘Done for tonight sorry hun back tomoz xx’. When I confronted him he says it’s spam from his old life, that he’s on a mailing list. I said I didn’t believe him. He finally admitted it’s escorts. I’ve googled the numbers and that’s confirmed. He says he’s not met anyone. Was just horny and needed to *** and we weren’t having sex before marriage so he used it as a *ank bank. Nothing more. Never met anyone. The date of the texts means 8 months later we got married. How would you react? I want to get over it and move on, believe him that it was just self pleasure at home alone texting random numbers but it’s come back to haunt me. Thoughts? His iPad (where I found it all) isn’t logged into his apple account now so I can’t see anything at all because it’s not synced. Apple account being unsync didn’t happen straight away, am I overthinking that other part of it? Thanks. Xx

It’s so easy to get caught up in our own lives and what WE need to do, & doing things that benefit US! What causes us to be overly focused on ourselves rather than others and the things God wants us to do?

How can we live a life that is poured out for Jesus ? It doesn’t have to be something super huge! Sending a card to a friend to encourage them, sending an encouraging song or scripture, or simply being a listening ear. Today I pray that we are able to realize when we’re becoming self absorbed, and I pray that we are able to stop & shower God’s love on others ✨💜

Are you familiar with the story of Tamar in the Bible? (2 Samuel Chapter 13) Tamar is the daughter of King David! So basically, she was a Beautiful Princess! The Bible speaks of this robe that she wore, and it’s said to be the robe that Virgin daughters of Kings wore. So here’s Tamar, a Beautiful Virgin Princess! Her half brother Amnon was in love with her, & tricked her into coming into his room to care for him as he claimed to be “ill”. Being obedient, she went and cared for her brother.

While she was taking care of him, he grabbed her & tried to have sex with her but she refused him because he was her brother & she knew it was wrong. He overpowered her, & raped her. After he raped her, he hated her, & treated her badly. He threw her out of the place where he stayed.

Tamar runs & weeps with her hands in her face. She bends over, & covers her face with ashes from the ground. She rips her beautiful virgin robe apart, running away in shame crying & weeping out loud. To me, covering her face in ashes was a symbolic way of her showing how dirty & ashamed she felt on the inside. When I first read that story, I cried. It’s like I felt every ounce of pain that she felt! God then lead me to do further research on Tamar & who she REALLY was. What I discovered, brought tears of joy & thankfulness to my eyes!

Tamar is in the genealogy of Jesus! (Matthew chapter 1 - not the 1st Tamar) as I read in Matthew I discovered that her Father King David, was the son of Jesse. If you keep reading in the genealogy of Jesus, which I won’t list because it’s a lot! you eventually see Jacob, father of Joseph who is Mary’s husband. Mary, mother of Jesus!

I began to see this story in a new light. Tamar, carried Jesus within her although the story of Jesus wasn’t yet told. She didn’t know of a redeemer that could save her & restore her & give her beauty for her ashes. But, we know! Or maybe you don’t know? Jesus is here for you, & today He wants to give you beauty for those ashes that you’ve rubbed on your own face. He will lift your head, & wipe away those tears of sadness & replace them with Joy. Sis, you don’t have to feel ashamed & dirty anymore.✨

As I read Chapter 8 of John, I was reminded of this dream I had 5 years ago! It might sound crazy for me to remember a whole entire dream from 5 years ago! But at the time, I was fresh out of college, and chasing after Jesus trying to understand my purpose in life! I was also 22 at the time, and felt overwhelmed with life after college, I was trying to figure it all out! This dream, left me in awe!

I saw myself standing in the middle of this desert, it was so silent... scary silent! I literally felt like I was the only person on earth! All of a sudden, I heard this loud roar, and thunderous foot steps and the ground began to shake! I was so scared because I didn’t see anything yet, but I heard it coming and I wanted to hide! Then, all these animals appeared. Elephants, lions, giraffes, tigers, literally every animal you could think of! It was like a stampede, and they seemed to all be coming towards me. All of a sudden, it was like I was snatched out of the way, and the animals continued to run forward.

As I felt the powerful Hand of God holding me out of the way of this stampede, He spoke to me, His voice so clear and strong, yet gentle! He said...

“Before the world was formed, there was Me, and before Me? There was Me...I AM”

Isn’t that powerful & beautiful? I woke up from that dream encouraged and believing that God is capable of handling everything that came my way! No matter how big, or small. If you ever have doubt or fear in your heart that He can’t handle your situation, even if you’re questioning His goodness & if He’s real! ... Today, He’s saying.. “I AM”

✨ I AM who I say I am ... Exodus 3:14 ✨ I AM your provider... Philippians 4:19 ✨ I AM your protector ... Psalm 18:2 ✨ I AM the bread of life ... John 6:35 ✨ I AM the light of the world ... John 8:12 ✨ I AM the way, the truth, and the life ... John 14:6 ✨ I AM HE ... Revelation 1:18

Hey ladies! What worship song are you listening to this week? Here’s one of my favs! 🤍