Here to vent!
When my daughter was diagnosed with HIE they told us they most likely wouldn’t do another MRI until she was 2 and let’s just say our first MRI in the NICU wasn’t awesome. My daughter just passed 18 months and that came with lots of specialist appointments and EI follow ups and even though things are going well and overall my daughter is still progressing steadily I am still finding myself holding my breath until 2.
In fact, one of my good friends called me out on it because she and I were talking about a recent appointment and she said something along the lines of ‘That sounds so good, I’m so glad she’s not behind,’ and I said ‘Well we’ll see where we’re at in the summer,’ and she asked why it didn’t seem like I was that excited about the present and the positives and I just kinda brushed it off as a cranky moment, but the truth is I just don’t think I’ll feel comfortable until I have more solid answers. And who even knows if I’ll even get that after she turns 2! Some doctors have told me they might not know what her abilities will be until kindergarten age!
I just want my sweet and super happy baby to be able to be a super happy child and adult too and not be constantly wondering if she will be able to lead the life she deserves. My husband and I aren’t wealthy people and I worry about her future if she isn’t able to take care of herself on her own and we’re too old to!