Face First (Incognito-Free)

I often see this I didn’t realize I was blocked by so many people 😂

I’m a preschool teacher, before that regular daycare teacher. Yesterday a student of mine from 2 years ago went missing. He is nonverbal autistic..the entire city has been searching for him in the snow since yesterday. He was found…at the bottom of the pond in the apartment complex. I feel sick. I’m shaking. He was such a light…no mother should feel what that mother feels right now. My son hasn’t slept in my bed since he was 8 months old. The last two nights in been in my bed. I’m holding my baby extra tight..you never know when a life can be taken.

How is everyone? Are we doing okay? ❤️ I can say I’m doing okay, life can be better but I’m content for now🩵🩵

I have an update if you’ve been following my termination process. I got my termination at 14 weeks 5 days on 7/31. I was devastated to hear I wouldn’t be able to get ashes for my son since 20 weeks was the requirement. But who told me was wrong! I was shocked to hear it was $800. I never went through a death/funeral/cremation where I was paying or in charge so prices weren’t even in my radar. I was expecting maybe $400-$500. I thank Yahweh that I have a great support system, family and friends that donated to my GoFundMe and within 3 days I raised enough money to bring my baby Cove home with his family! I’m still bleeding, some abdominal discomfort and I’m getting there mentally day by day. I am currently wanting the 3 year IUD (kyleena) so if you have any experience with kyleena please comment as I’ve never had an IUD and very nervous. I have to wait until I test negative to get it inserted and they said that’ll be at least 5 weeks and to test weekly.. it’s so weird knowing my baby is gone but getting positive tests.. Despite what has happened my 2 year old and I have been well. He’s keeping the smile on my face. I have to get up for him everyday. But this is my little update! Should have him home in the next week or so, continuing therapy and just taking it day by day. 🩵

My termination is tomorrow. I’ve been a mess all day today and yesterday. I cannot get ashes because in my state it is not considered a child until 20 weeks. Just pray for me, rub your crystals, light a candle, cross your fingers, whatever you believe in, just do it for me please 😭😩