TTC in your 40’s

It’s not the first time and I asked him before if he is doing this to avoid sex on the fertile days because he can have an argument and sex regardless but I don’t feel like doing anything if I am angry at him, I already struggle to get aroused with all the mess around the house and how tired I am, so, having an argument without clothes doesn’t make it more appealing. Am I the only one? He said he is not trying to avoid sex but it is not the first time and I can’t avoid thinking he does it on purpose.

Death no mother August 24 2024

Celebrating 9 years of alcohol sobriety and first time TTC. 44yo

I wasn’t trying anymore and had actually changed my mind.

I had an early scan today and only an empty sack was there at 7 weeks, this happened before. Of 5 times I had positive tests, only one healthy baby came up and is my best achievement in life but this is so tiring. I thought I was lucky to fall pregnant again as soon as we decided to start trying after our baby. I was feeling ready, even though it would be harder with a toddler around but I knew I would manage. I was keeping my hopes down because of my past experience and yesterday I saw a pink shade when wiping and I knew what was about to come. The scan was already booked. Everyone was telling me not to overthink beforehand, I kind of know how this works. Even though I was mentally preparing for it, still it hurts. Still I feel like a failure, that I couldn’t produce a healthy egg this time to grow healthy inside of me and knowing it is not in my control is possibly the worst part because I am doing all the “right” things but my chances are low. Recurrent miscarriage even makes the statistics look worst. I am sure others will relate to this post and I hope we can all have the healthy babies we have tried so hard for.