I think I should result to fear

So I was severely abused as a child I wasn’t bad just the unwanted child but that’s besides the point I grew up with this fear of my mother where I just knew I shouldn’t do certain things because I wanted to avoid upsetting her at all cost or making things harder for her in any way I was hardly seen never heard. Anyways my child does some of the most off the wall shit that I would have never even thought of doing as a child my kid is super intelligent so sometimes it feels like it’s just done to mess with me. Well I am exhausted I have tried any and every intervention different parenting styles I know the whole gentle parenting thing is popular now I’ve tried that and I’m a believer in different things work for different children. I feel like I want my child to fear me maybe not as much as I did my mom but enough where the stupid shit is not done cause it just makes my life so much harder. I want my kid to be afraid to do something that shouldn’t be done like common sense stuff and stop acting like we have no home training and stop embarrassing me when we’re in public and at school I’m just tired