Working on myself

Ok. So at times, my anxiety will convince me that I don't deserve friends, and I'll isolate myself from them. In my mind, it seems like the logical thing to do. I commented on a friend's tiktok comment, and now I'm thinking "Why am I so annoying?" I want to stop this way of thinking, and I do not know where to start. I do think I'm going to go into the new year not talking to anyone but family, because my friends do deserve to have friends who aren't annoying. I wish there was a way I could remove myself from everyone's life without them thinking I'm being rude.