Long post about narcissistic abuse

Does anyone else struggle with the fact that not only was your partner a narcissist, but the majority of your family are also narcissists. It feels like you have little to no support. I’m trying to please my self and starting over from scratch with a 15 month old after leaving an abusive situation, trying to learn self love etc, and yet everyone else(my family) assumes I should just please them all and that my situation and my mental health really doesn’t matter. A little backstory: left my partner of 3 years after 2 years of severe mental emotional and 2 incidents of physical violence. it took SO much out of me to finally get out and it’s a struggle every single day being a single mother and trying to coparent with the narc. My sister kept begging me to leave and come stay with her and her 2 kids in a 1 bedroom and I finally did. I’ve been here for a month; and I found some gig jobs and make double what most people make working a full time job. I’ve struggled saving because I had car repairs, multiple expenses to take care of, saving for my place I’m suposed to get at the end of the year, as well as my child’s necessities and I have yet to do anything for MYSELF. plan was to move out of my sisters apartment with her and her new bf and get a 3 bedroom until my place comes up. He went behind our backs and rented a 2 bedroom. For 6 people and expected me to sleep on the couch and my son also not have a room. We also found out that he cheated on my sister with someone else and is having a baby with her and my sister is deciding to stay and get the apartment with him. I said absolutely not. My mother offered for me to stay with her and I’d have my own room for me and my son. It would be temporary because I have my own place coming up in November I’m on a wait list for. Both of my sisters were running their mouths saying I’m selfish for leaving not go there and that I’m should stay with my sister to make sure she’s not lonely and help her out but she knew I was going to my moms in April and her house was TEMPORARY unless we did get a place together. My sister was talking to my other sister tonight on the phone and telling her how I bailed on them and won’t move in now and that she doesn’t know what to do without me (she’s EXTREMELY sensitive and just an overall miserable person always depressed always negative and rude) every time I leave to go to work or anything without her she gets mad at me for leaving. It’s extremely toxic and the attitude and energy is bringing me down even more while I’m struggling to stay afloat mentally my self. She doesn’t work makes excuses to get a job and doest pay her rent currently now which is why she’s moving. We originally planned that we’d both work around each others schedules to watch each others kids but since she never got a job and hasn’t tried, I started gig jobs and work 7 days a week full time. My other sister was on the phone being rude and intrusive saying I should be working opposite shifts as her and it isn’t fair at all for me to work whenever I want and not watch her kids for her and I explained that it isn’t a possibility because the work I do is first come first serve I can only do it when orders pop up I can’t make a schedule and I’m doing what I have to do for ME. My sister didn’t work before I even got here and now it’s somehow MY JOB to take care of her kids and lose hours at my job to benefit her. Now she’s on the phone still while I’m laying in bed playing a pitty party saying saying “I’m not saying it’s anyone’s responsibility but mine but like how is it fair that she can work whenever she wants but not let me work so she can watch my kids and how am I going to get a job if she won’t watch my kids like it’s totally unfair she won’t help me out at all all she does is works and never wants to help me.“ then she’s saying it’s not fair that I don’t pay her to live here. Like I just came from an abusive situation I’m starting over I’m hardly here. I pay for all my own things all I do is sleep on her couch and she doesn’t even pay her own bills. My other sister on the phone is telling me that I need to find A different job and maybe I shouldn’t have gotten with an abusive guy who doesn’t help care for his child and that I’m being selfish I should be helping her out and blah blah blah. Like I can BARELY help myself like I’m barely staying afloat and then I have to try and please and make everyone else happy but nothing I do does. Does no one understand I’m struggling with my mental health now and need to be alone and focus on me. I’m barely keeping my head above water