Pregnant again

We lost our second baby on 27th February and I had a D&C the following day. We have a baby boy already who is now 10 months old and although it was very soon to have another baby, we were devastated to lose it. I was 2 days away from having my 12 week scan when we lost the baby even though we had a private scan at 8.5 weeks which showed everything was fine with a strong heartbeat. We wanted to start trying again and and I found out that I’m pregnant again (exactly 4w today). We are so happy but also feeling so anxious. We are planning a small cremation for our second baby which is happening on the 12th June and I’m feeling very sad with mixed emotions. I feel so guilty that I’m feeling happy about another baby when I’m still planning a funeral for my second one. This baby is so wanted but I’m also petrified I’m going to lose it. My anxiety is through the roof and my fiancée has said he’s feeling so worried too. I’m taking all my vitamins, folic acid, immediately stopped caffeine and I’m taking vitamin D plus an aspirin each day. I play rugby so I have a high BMI due to muscle mass so my doctor said I needed to take extra supplements in my last pregnancies. The one thing I’m very worried about is that all day today I have been having loads of period-like cramps. I had them a bit with both my pregnancies but I also had them quite badly when I experienced my loss. Is this normal? Am I just being overly sensitive to everything in this pregnancy now? How has everyone else coped with falling pregnant again after loss?
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I also have had anxiety after a loss, but I think you have to just try not to overthink everything. It’s so hard but also worrying about it won’t change anything. It sounds like your doing all the right things. I also wouldn’t feel guilty about being excited for the new pregnancy. It’s probably helped you in terms of dealing with the loss as well. I hope you can start to enjoy your pregnancy a bit more. Just trust your body and don’t overthink x

It’s the worst isn’t it. Have you rang your EPU and explained to them about your loss, as you will be given an early scan. I also opted for a reassurance scan last week even tho my 12 week scan is next Monday! My anxiety is through the roof and I’m not enjoying this pregnancy one bit. My first pregnant was a breeze and I loved it. Pregnancy after loss is so hard x

As silly as it sounds, every time I go to the toilet and see blood free tissue, I tell myself, "I am still pregnant" I have had a loss at 5 weeks and a loss at 8 weeks with twins and so far I am the furthest I've ever been pregnant before. First scan tomorrow, but I just keep telling myself that, and I seem to get by xx

@Deb this really resonated with me. That’s exactly what I’m doing too and going to the loo constantly to check and it gives me a small bit of relief to get through the day xx

@Victoria I’m still in touch with my bereavement midwife who is helping me organise the cremation and she said she will sort me out an early scan for 8 weeks for reassurance. Didn’t even ask as she offered it as soon as I told her I was pregnant which was really nice. I have a really good community midwife team who has seen me through my last two pregnancies and they have booked in to see me next week too x

@Amy thank you so much xx

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