Super long story of how my husband almost choked me to death

So for the longest I’ve dealt with cheating and metal and emotions abuse from my husband… he cheated on me so much I was so hurt and tried talking to him about how I felt to fix it and it always brought more issues because he would say I’m too emotional… eventually I had so much resentment towards him that a lot of day I would wake up angry at him just because I remembered some of the things he had done to me in the past. Me waking up angry made him angry and made us have more issues. I would tell him the reason why I would get angry all of a sudden and told him I didn’t want to be like that anymore but how can I fix anything if we never talk about it? I always have to be quiet and sweep everything under the rug to avoid problems. He didn’t want to go to counseling or do anything to fix the situation but wouldn’t want me to leave either (I also didn’t want to leave because we had a child and a family together). Well the last time we had issues of a female calling his phone and he assured me he hadn’t been talking to her I’m like “she wouldn’t be calling you if you weren’t talking to her or entertaining her cut the bs” he showed me the messages and he was right, he wasn’t talking to her she just randomly called him so I said ok whatever. (I was upset but still going to get over it because he hadn’t done nothing wrong) I then said “it’s still weird how she calling you” and he responded there was nothing he can do about it was like you can just block her… he proceeded to make a comment “why would I block her I’m trying to keep my options open in case we don’t work out” so that’s when I went off on him cz why would you say that??? We literally have a child together and I take care of your 2 other children. So for a while I told him to stay away from me (I was still trying to get over that comment) because he kept saying he didn’t mean it like that that he’s always home with me and the kids so it didn’t matter and that he will block her. After a week or 2 I got over it and we kept everything going like nothing happened… he asked me to do something on his phone and while I was at it, I noticed that same girl at the top of his messages so I go thru them and see messages as if they hung out talking about “what are we gonna drink tn ima drink this and she said she was drinking that” so I went off on him again like … are you serious right now??? With the same girl we just had issues about she was supposed to be blocked what the hell… he was like “well you didn’t wanna be around me” (even tho we live in the same household but I didn’t wanna have sex or let him touch me in any way) I was like with good fkn reason you c what you’re doing!!? I grabbed my son and took off… we were supposed to be going to his family’s house since it was 4th of July but I left so he went on his own… when he got back home that night I was there with my son and we started arguing again. He started saying “I don’t even know if Amouri is my son” I was so shook he said that cz why would you say that??? Im literally only here cz we have a child together if he wasn’t yours I wouldn’t be here. He said he wanted a DNA test (like literally just flipping the script on me I’m so mindblown because I don’t even know how he managed to do this) after he gets caught cheating he’s asking me for a DNA test like hooooww!? But I said if you have ANY doubts this is your son you shouldn’t have gave him your name even made him the 4th because YOU chose that. Anyways if you have any doubt please go ahead and get it done ASAP because you’re mad disrespectful I don’t ever wanna hear this again. If anything iiii should be asking YOU to get tested… anyways, I made a different post on here explaining my situation and so many married woman were saying “I wouldn’t let my husband do that to me, my husband would never, I would deal with that not even for the sake of calling him my husband” and it just encouraged me to STOP making excuses for myself and leave that whole situation and not to stay not even because we share a child. So the next day I woke up and texted my mom asking if u can come back home and she said yes ofc so so then I told him “I will be leaving sooner than expected” he started screaming saying “you’re a fucking hoe you wanna leave because I asked for a DNA test” I was like no that’s not the case at all, just let me know the date, time, and place and I will have Amouri there on time. You will still get the DNA test that’s not a problem. He kept screaming that I’m a hoe and I said this is the exact reason why I can’t be here anymore I literally cannot have a conversation with you. It started to get physical and then started choking me saying “don’t worry ima just make you pass out don’t worry” his uncle was passing by and he saw his nephew choking me telling him “stop you’re gonna kill her” and he turned and looked at him (as he kept choking me” and told him the same thing “don’t worry about it ima just make her pass out” and his uncle had to literally fight him off me (way older man). Soon as he let me go I called the cops and as we waited for the cops he was trying to scare me saying “I don’t care to go to jail I been to jail you’re a dumbass they’re gonna take you too and take your child they’re gonna take all the kids” we kept waiting he waited downstairs and I was in the apartment and a few min before the cops arrived he started blowing my phone telling me he loves me that I just been giving him too many problems lately and when the cops hand cuffed him he started calling me all types of names… he bailed out 2 days later and I messaged him saying we can get the DNA test whenever he’s ready…. He never replied. I don’t know why after all this I still feel like I did something wrong… I keep thinking I should’ve just let him cheat in peace… and it makes me feel like such a horrible person because I know me having these thought I definitely have no love for myself anymore and it sucks because I know I’m just mind fucked and it’s like I don’t care I feel so broken and lost without my family but I never want to go back