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TTC Baby#1 Conceiving your first after miscarriage(s)🌸

Am I crazy?

I'm currently 4+5 pregnant. This is my first pregnancy after a chemical at 4 weeks. My body is responding differently than last time, which can only be a good thing, right? I'm experiencing aches in my hips and lower back with the occasional stomach cramp, daily diarrhoea, lightning crotch (!) And occasional sore/heavy boobs. I'm finding myself huperfocusing on every little thing. I'm checking my underwear every hour to make sure there's no blood. Generally just very paranoid, but also trying to be positive.

I just did a 1st trimester yoga exercise (trying to reduce my exercise intensity again out of paranoia) and when I finished it became very emotional and couldn't stop crying. I guess I found it really difficult that a lot of the practice was about connecting with your baby, and whilst I want to do that, it feels hard to emotionally go there, especially whilst I'm still in the 'danger zone'.

I guess I was just curious as to whether anyone else has had a similar experience. Are my physical symptoms normal? Am I crazy for crying over yoga?