What about me?

First off, I love my babies so much !!!!!almost all of my time goes to taking caring of home and caring for them. I want to change that just a little. I get things done and it feels good but I get so exhausted. I need positive fun friends (moms) just as motivated as me … my daughter is 9 months and my son is 3 years old …. Lotssssss of energy 😵‍💫 lol but it’s so worth it at the end of the day…I’d like to do more self care and date nights ..we have absolutely no one to depend on for baby sitters … I checked out care.com .. not sure if my fiancé is with it though… mommy needs time for her self!!!!!!! At least a couple times a week would be nice .. I want to get sexy and go out to dinner ((a reason to wear a pair of heels )) omg !! I’ve been thinking about going back to school or just getting a job with my recovery coach certification.. I don’t know what to do right now … need a real woman to talk to …. :/ my emotions are up and down but of course I push through! 😑 there’s got to be more to my life !