RESENTMENT - IN LAWS

When I had my baby my in laws were very difficult and I’m struggling to move on or Feel comfortable around them because I just don’t feel safe in the environment whilst I’m at my most vulnerable. I’m starting to feel a little bit more of myself but I’m still really struggling to not be so resentful. It’s making me feel quite resentful towards my husband as well, not as much on top of being resentful over my husband for the lack of help and feeling like I had 2 children. I just feel like a big bundle of resentment, and I feel like I’m the only one with problematic in laws. They gave me a lot of struggle and grief around the time of her birth and immediately after, starting with being angry(yes angry) for not sending a photo of my baby within the hour of her birth (whilst I was still on the table being stitched up and they were aware of this) and my husband ended up being on his phone not long after her birthday, and staying in his phone because he was telling him my baby was born and sending photos…sorry to be negative on the page :( I’ve realised I’m quite literally depressed. These things to this day keep me up at night and repetitively get reminded of it throughout the day and just wonder off in my thoughts stuck thinking about it