Feelin’ lonely

Have you ever felt like you have no one to talk to? I love my career and wish I had someone to talk about it with, to share my experiences and my successes. I’ve had some moments that I’m really proud of but my mom is too busy to care and if she does have time to listen her reaction is never as excited, interested, or impressed as I’m hoping for. My husband doesn’t seem interested in my work days either. Sometimes he doesn’t ask me how my day was at all, never mind take the time to listen to my experiences at work. I wish someone was interested in me and how I’m feeling. I spend a lot of time caring for my son who is almost 2 y.o. I care for him the majority of the time while my husband gets to do what he wants to do outside of work, video games, scrolling social media, etc. It gets lonely. I cry alone often. Nobody comes to check on me. I just deal with things myself no matter how painful. I don’t have any friends, never mind close friends I can talk to. I love being a mother to my son but at the same time, it’s just not fair either. My life revolves around my son and his needs from the moment he wakes up to the moment he goes to bed besides when I’m working. I never get a break. Haven’t slept in since he was born. When my husband is upset with me, he won’t even sleep in the same bed as me. That makes me feel incredibly lonely. My husband often times will stay up very late on Friday nights and then sleep in on Saturdays. He is on TikTok looking at women who are gorgeous with plenty of silicon enhancements- lips, breasts, butt, etc. Looking at women who are so much more gorgeous than me and have much better bodies than me. I don’t have the money to pay for such surgeries to look better. I just wish I caught his eye the way the woman online catch his eye. He gets to sleep in while I take care of our son alone. I just feel lonely and sad.