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Had a break down last night

So yesterday my husband was looking at girls pictures and I noticed, I told him that he will lose his family if he keeps paying attention to other girls and he ignored me and that make me really upset so I started telling him he has to stop and while I was talking he literally yawned and rolled his eyes and I threw a small light remote to him which didn’t hit him and I told him very loud how tf is he doing that while I talk to him about something that hurts me. He said I’m sleepy I’m sleepy… okay did you really have to show me with your expressions you literally don’t care about what I’m sayin. I kicked him out to the coach because he was disrespectful and he refused to leave so I tried to grab him and my nails are long so it hurt him. HE SLAPPED ME I immediately stared to punch him and scratching him which obviously I’m not strong I’m 25 weeks pregnant so he stood up grabbed me by the neck and put me shiny the bed then I was trying to break free by scratching him so his reaction was BITING ME so strong I still can feel it. He stood up and I was just assimilating was had happened so I stared to breathe very loud and it stared to get hard to stop and I started to have a panic attack I couldn’t stop breathing loudly and then he tried to make me stop but I didn’t want him to touch me so I started screaming and I couldn’t control myself so I slapped myself and tried to hold me but it just made it worse… I was able to calm down a little and had to scream at him to leave because he was saying everything was my fault and I made him do everything he was defending himself he left and then came back on his knees apologizing which he always does but then happens again. I’m honestly more concerned about my baby after this. I don’t what’s going to happen to her and what I should I after what happened I just hope she’s okay and this doesn’t affect her because she’s 25 weeks