Smoking, stress and pregnant

So I’ve been going through so much since being pregnant. I have quit drinking, trying to eat a lot better than I use to and also taking my vitamins every day. I use to smoke around 10 a day and I’ve cut down to 2. I ideally don’t want to smoke at all and somedays I don’t but atm it’s proving hard when life keeps throwing curveballs my way. On top of everything, my husband told me he regrets having the baby and has since been missing for 4 days so feel totally alone, I have no clue what he’s been doing or what he is doing but I think binge drinking is the most likely. 😩

I went for a scan the other day and baby was measuring 3 days under? I can’t help but feel so guilty and all the stress on the baby just seems so unfair. Has anyone been through the same? Got any tips? And how was baby when they was born?

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