Overcoming anxiety…

Help! About six weeks ago I decided I needed to stop feeling sorry for myself and go get a job. I thought that not only did I need the money but I thought it would be a good start in meeting new people. I thought ‘you never know, I might bond with someone and I could finally end up with a friend/group of friends I could have a laugh with’. Oh, how freaking wrong could I be!? I easily got a job waitressing but, of course, I am much older than most of the other staff working there (38, nearly 39 😭). Age doesn’t usually bother me as I can usually find something to relate to someone else but there is one particular girl (aged 19) who I get the feeling has taken an instant dislike to me. I don’t know this for sure, and I certainly don’t want to go running to my manager to say she keeps rolling her eyes at me or hinting that I’m doing a particular bad job at things (it sounds paranoid at best!) so I’ve made the effort to ignore it, crack on and make the best out of the situation. Anyway, last Friday night the place was so busy, it was boiling hot inside and we were short staffed. I ended up making a mistake with one of the table numbers - I held my hands up, apologised profusely and accepted tha