Why?

I’ve been in this app for a while now, and I haven’t been able to make a real connection! How’s that? Am I the problem? Made a connection with a really nice girl nearly 3 years ago, we were talking every day, all the time, but she was a bit of a “liar”, and I can’t keep up with people who lies, even if it’s something small. If we’re friends, just tell me the truth, even if I don’t like it, we’ll make it through! I’ve got kids (like everyone in here) and a husband (who’s quite alone too, doesn’t have a lot of friends, so we’re barely around other people), and I need much more than that, I need to find myself again, I want to have friends who can go out once a month and have some drinks (I’m not an alcohol person, but I won’t say no to a cocktail), and maybe go out for some dancing, which I love (I’m latina). I don’t wanna be just mummy or wifey!! I stopped my life 7 years ago, haven’t been able to study or have an stable job, while my husband (he’s been really supportive, honestly) progress, he’s in a really nice job, he loves his job and enjoys doing what he does, he has progressed in his life, but I haven’t, I don’t have a job (apart from being a mum), I don’t have friends or any career. I feel like I’m stuck, and I just want to run! Run far away, and not look back (I know it sounds really selfish, but that’s how I feel). I see some of my “fiends” or people I know, and they’re doing something with their life, have money to do nice holidays or stuff like that. My oldest is 6 yo, and still not being able to take him to a nice place to have holidays, I haven’t been able to learn how to drive or anything at all in my life. I feel like a waste! I just want a nice friend, one that I can talk to about anything, be there for each other and go out! And be just two girl friends, no kids, no husbands. I don’t want anyone that says: oh yeah, let’s be friends, and they stop talking to you 2 days later! Someone genuine please, I’m not asking for much! I don’t want to feel this alone and such a bad mum cause I don’t have energy to do anything with myself. I want a friend who doesn’t judge you for who you are, or someone who is better than me, but it doesn’t make me feel like I’m not worth to become friends with, just because I don’t have an income, or I don’t own a house, or I don’t work or have any career please. Thank you if you read all of this, I appreciate you and your time