Pregnancy after loss is such a blessing but so much harder than I ever imagined đđ I lost my girl late in pregnancy and this time I wonât go past when I lost her as Iâm being induced before then. I find every day such a massive struggle. Iâve been up to triage twice now for reduced movements even if theyâre just slightly off. Every day I torture myself that baby is not ok in there. His pattern is changing and Iâm finding that hard to get my head round. All I can do is hope and pray but my god this is mental torture. I just need and want him here safely and healthily in my arms đ come on February!!! We can do this baby boy đ©”đ
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I relate so much. It is mental torture sending you love and I used the helplines like crazy whenever I needed a cry. Donât feel bad for going in whenever anything feels strange, just follow your gut. Itâs better to be told itâs nothing than go through that mental turmoil. Come on February be here already. Thinking of your baby girl too xx

im so sorry youâve experienced this toođą I just cry to myself but then I feel
Guilty for baby boy. Itâs just constant torture and pressure, but I wouldnât change being pregnant with him for the world. Thank you so much xxxx

Same to you mama, itâs so unfair. Sending you lots and lots of love. Pregnancy after loss is not easy at all, I felt guilty too. You are doing your best! đ«

This is all very normal and probably your way of coping/having some kind of control over the situation. Thereâs also nothing wrong with seeking help you if you feel like movements have changed or just for reassurance. Youâve been through a lot, donât let anyone dismiss your concerns or fear. Unfortunately, it doesnât get any easier until they are here and you can physically protect them, but I pray that time goes quickly for you!

a few people have said the same, that it doesnât get easier until baby is here which I can imagine it doesnât. We have 9 weeks left please pray for usđâ€ïž thank you x