My husband decides on when HE wants more kids
(sorry for long post) It’s been a rough day and idk who else to speak to about this.
For the first time, I feel truly lost and very angry with my husband. We had a huge argument, and it all started when I told him that every time I see a pregnant woman, I feel a little jealous. I've been wanting to conceive for the past year. Our son will be two years old in a few weeks, and while he was a surprise, I was thrilled when we found out—just days after our wedding.
That pregnancy was incredibly emotional for me. Part of my desire to have another child comes from wanting to experience pregnancy differently. During my first trimester—just weeks after our wedding—my husband and I had a major falling out. We were so upset with each other that we didn’t speak for almost two weeks. It still hurts because, in the moment I needed him most, he couldn’t put his feelings aside. We both handled the stress leading up to our wedding poorly, but I just needed him to be there for me. My hormones were all over the place, and I know other moms understand how overwhelming that can be. He says he just didn’t know how to act, and while I’ve forgiven him, I still carry the weight of that time.
Now that I’m ready for another baby, he says he doesn’t want one right now because he’s focused on building his business and doesn’t want to add more to his plate. That response crushed me. I have my own timeline—I want to finish school, go to law school, and being pregnant two years from now wouldn’t be ideal for me. I told him he’s being inconsiderate and always decides things based on what works best for him. I’m exhausted and angry because it feels like I’m with someone who doesn’t love or understand me.
What hurts even more is that when I tried to have an honest conversation, it turned into a fight. My vulnerability was thrown back at me, and instead of support, I got resistance. It’s making me feel like the dream we once had of having four kids is slipping away. I’m slowly accepting that we might only have one child—not because that’s what I want, but because he’s unwilling to compromise.
I turn 30 this year, and I have dreams and a biological clock to consider. Meanwhile, he’s waiting for some perfect moment that doesn’t exist. If motherhood has taught me anything, it’s that you’re never truly "ready." God decides, and you just do the best you can.
Am I wrong for feeling this way? Am I being inconsiderate of his wishes? Out of frustration, I told him I hated him—because I’m shocked that everything we planned together is changing based on his perception of readiness. We both have jobs, I get paid leave, and my small business generates over $3K a month. What am I not understanding?
Okay firstly why would he want to have a child with someone who says they hate him? That's really mean, I hope you've since apologised. That aside, this is definitely a tricky situation. You say he's unwilling to compromise, what would an ideal compromise be here? I would definitely return to the conversation and let him know that honesty and empathy need to be at the forefront, as fighting about it will only make matters worse. I'm sorry he hasn't shown you support in the ways you've needed, it's really hard when our partners don't show up in the way we need them to. I hope you can be clear and direct about your needs now, and that he listens. Would some couples therapy be an option you could consider? A neutral third party might be really helpful in helping you both to better engage in the conversation and work through it together.