Motivation with back at work
Hello, I have been back at work for almost 4 months now after a 9 months mat leave.
I am head of department and was hired to drive revenue for the organisation. I used to feel so confident and felt successful. Since I have been back, there's been some org changes and now I just feel so unmotivated and doing only the minimum. I feel like a failure a bit. I am looking at other jobs but also feel like it would be stupid to leave my company (I have great benefit here), I constantly feel I am not good enough and I can see I am not driving much revenue, I am wondering if I'll be made redundant.. and then thinking I might as well wait for it.
I am just feeling so lost :(.
Anyone has words of advice for me?
You've been through a massive life change. It's normal to feel like your priorities have shifted. Added to that the changes at work it's no wonder your feeling lost. I really struggled returning to work, as the anxiety I felt every time I had to ask work for time off because my child was sick, etc, or missing out on things. I ended up feeling like I was failing as both an employee and a mum. I decided to take the leap and be a stay at home mum but still wanted a sense of purpose, so I started my online travel business. I would probably take some time to reflect on what it is making you feel this way. Eg, is it because of the changes or is adjusting to being a mum and leaving your baby contributing. You could change jobs and still not feel fulfilled. Sorry, not really advise but my inbox is open if you want to talk it over.