Alone

I'm currently 11wks 5days and I've never felt more alone in my life. I only have a few friends and I hate being a burden so I don't really reach out because I don't want to bother anyone. I HAD a best friend but she hasn't reached out to me in like a month and I feel it's because she owes me money but I am not the type of friend that cares about that. Especially because I know her situation at hand. Like you can't check on me...it hurt...My boyfriend be in his own world and Idk how many times I've talked to him about lack of communication and how it does affect me. We'll be good for a couple days then it goes right back to the same thing. Delayed text and minimal calls which sucks. I have attachment/abandonment issues so it's intensified when I don't hear from him. Like why is it so hard to just simply text me? I understand being busy. I'm already a mom of a 5 year old boy and he has 3 boys of his own so I understand but I feel like I've been on the back burner 80% of our relationship and 90% of my pregnancy. Feeling this way during the most fragile time of your life brings out a different type of emotions. Idk I'm just in a weird place and it sucks..