I love my son but idk if I can be a mom
It’s really hard when you have a partner that genuinely believes he’s helping enough but can’t feed, bathe, wash our child’s hair, stop him from crying (HAS TO BE ME), teach him basic skills. It’s all me and I’m going through ppa and ppd so I try my best to be consistent but I can’t keep up with it all. I feel like it’s becoming too much and if I don’t get support I genuinely will no longer be able to keep up. I been through exhaustion and I’ve had so many days where I cried and felt like how is this possible to care for him all day and night myself. I need to move near family in order to support my son better I think. I daydream of co-parenting I love my partner but he would be forced to care for our child if I’m not around and I’d get a damn break. I soak in the 1-5min breaks I get when he says he will hold our son or when I’m in the shower. When our son was first born I would use the washroom slowly so I get a few mins break.
I’m so sorry love