Running on Empty and need to vent

I’ve struggled with depression and anxiety before, and I was so scared prior to giving birth of going through PPD because it took so much of me to get myself back. I’ve been doing my best fighting those feelings of sadness, but I’m now at a point where I cannot hold it anymore. I am depressed and have very bad anxiety. My focus is to always be a trying mom who remains present with my daughter and does all I can, but I’ve been catching myself where I get sudden burst of sadness, as soon as I wake up my heart is racing , my appetite is off, and I feel like I’m missing out on moments with my daughter and husband because I’m constantly in my head with a million thoughts and to do lists that feels endless. I’m in school online, a teacher, a wife and mommy, all while trying to make sure I eat drink water and somehow take care of me, and trying to juggle it all is exhausting!! On top of that, when I try to be vulnerable with my husband and release my emotions with him like I used to when we first met, he now tells me “you have to be strong, stop being weak, this is not the woman I met, your daughter doesn’t want a mom like this who’s weak” and it tore me because I do ALL I CAN to keep it together , to be strong and to fulfill all my responsibilities while feeling the way I do. To know that the person who was once my secured space is now someone I avoid opening up with because I get judged or belittled. And it’s unfortunately led to me feeling emotionally disconnected from my husband , and it’s something I didn’t want because I do love him, but to feel like disconnected challenges alot in marriage. All I do now is talk to God, always tell my daughter mommy is trying and mommy loves you so much while trying to juggle everything. She is who is keeping me together but I’m doing everything on empty. Any tips on how to overcome this rough moment ? Did anyone go through or is going through something similar ?