Why can’t I be positive?

I just feel like my life is one shitty situation after another. One child who’s a teen & from a previous DA relationship which basically broke me. He now has decided his narcissistic father is a better choice..so lives there ☹️ My second child who is just amazing and I have the best most supportive partner. We’ve been trying for another for well over a year now. Nothing. I should be happy but I’m not. I want to work but I also want to be with my LO til he starts school but then I crave a break and to be other than just mum. My mental health isn’t great, I’ve had counselling and I’m on Antidepressants. I just feel like it’s so hard to wake up in the morning and be grateful when I don’t feel positive. I feel like being a mum isn’t what I expected it to be, it’s tiring and some days it’s just totally thankless. How do you all stay happy/positive for the future?

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I don’t really have much advice because I feel similarly. It’s hard to find happiness and a balance. I decided to go to part time so I could have more time with my daughter and still get some time away. But work is basically my only time away and it’s not enough of a break for my mental health. I just want you to know you’re not alone and it’s great that you’re in counseling and doing something to at least try to remedy it. You’re in my thoughts

I think you may need to get another therapist or start seeing yours more regularly. I would also have your dr review your antidepressants. They don’t seem to be working the way they should. That happens sometimes if your dose is incorrect, you’ve been on them too long without making any changes, or that’s not the medicine for you. Are you journaling? Deep breathing? Meditating? What concepts from therapy are you using to regulate ur emotions. Depression is a check engine light. If ur feeling depressed, u are ignoring something that you need to address. Therapy helps us figure out what that something is for us. Also. What’s your religious background? Whenever I’m getting really depressed and nothing seems to satisfy me, I think about the times in the Bible where Jesus tells people how he can satisfy that thirst.

I just take each day as it comes. Did I wake up to my beautiful baby this morning? His smiling face. It’s sunny and warm. We went to the playground. He’s happy. His happiness brings me happiness. Find little wins! Even if it’s saying you woke up today, that’s a win!

@Lativa if I’m completely honest I don’t get meditation. I don’t understand how to do it properly but I know people who rave about it. My therapy has just finished and it was actually for anxiety more than depression tbh. I think the tablets are helping I just wish I could be happy with my lot x

@Christina🤱🏼🍂☕️♈️ that’s lovely thank you x

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