I started doing the same thing it’s horribly scary. What I found best was putting her in the next to me crib and the zipping up the sides so I couldn’t reach her and then pushing her away.
@Emma I might have to start doing that. Honestly, I can't stop thinking about all the what it's
I’m the same and it’s a vicious cycle because I think the anxiety makes it worse. If you ever need to chat you’re welcome to send a message!
Oh gosh that must have been a surprise! Do you have a monitor you could set up - or even just your phone? - and record a night to see if you can spot what happens? Or someone you trust to do a night shift so you can get some proper rest? X