I just need to rant! Up at 2am crying thinking where I went wrong

I have given up on my husband! My little girl is 8 months old and I want to make things work but is it even worth it! I just have so much resentment towards him! 1- Despite me being on maternity pay I pay for everything towards my little girl. He's never really gone out of his way to get her anything at all. I mean it took him 8 months to even get her a toy which he didn't even check to see if It was intact. 2- Since having her I went out for the first time on Friday for dinner with a friend. He assured me he would do the night shift and look after her. I was back by 9pm and 20 mins after coming home his 2 friends turned up and they started drinking. Safe to say I ended up doing the night shift alone because he was now drunk and had smoked so he couldn't handle her. 3- He goes out every weekend and I am home alone with my daughter despite me asking for a break! I haven't got this since having her! 4- Gas lighting - what have you done all day! When I explain there is a lot to do he would turn around and say do it whilst she is asleep! Am I not entitled to a damn break? 5- Some days I barely get a chance to eat when I communicated that his response was you're an adult you should eat! 6- I managed my childs routine and have shared this with him many times. When I asked him about it his reply was you never said that. I am now at a point where I am sharing things on what's app and email to keep everything written. 7- He says he will change but I just don't believe him! He barely feeds her or changes her I have to always ask for him to do this! Should this be happening in a marriage? Why do I constantly look at him and just feel empty? I've given up 😔