I don’t need advice I just need to let it out

Tomorrow is my son’s second birthday and I have about £10 to my name.. I would never in a million years have thought that my life would turn out like this. I did save to get him a cake but I had to use that money to get food so I guess I need to ask for money from friends and family. I am a student, I receive student finance and for that reason they don’t accept my application for universal credit. I am thousands in dept, can’t afford to get another credit and I feel like shit. Can’t get a job, can’t pay the rent, I might as well just die. (I don’t wanna die, I’m not suicidal, I’m just tired) 😭