starting my journey again🌿🤍

Back story: I was a very troubled child, getting into trouble with police, hanging around bad influences, and just going down the wrong path😬, so i decided at 13 to start my spiritual journey. At first i didn’t really understand what being spiritual meant, all my beliefs align with spirituality but i never “acted” on it. For 4 years i finally felt that peace was coming my way… ❌WRONG! at 17 i met my child’s father and he absolutely ruined me. not only me but my journey, i have now lost every bit of progress i made throughout them 4 years, as in, my confidence, my stability, my happiness, my peace, my care and so much more, as you can probably imagine. Now we are here, at level 1, all over again. i would LOVE any bit of advice, or any way in how i can become my spiritual self again, i miss her so much and i would absolutely LOVE that version of myself back! not just for me but for my beautiful daughter too🤍 Thank you all in advance and i hope all of you are doing well🎀