Bd continues to live his life

So bd still shares his location with me, not sure why. Maybe he forgot. But anyways I’m low key pissed off that he continues to live his life while I fight for sleep in the middle of the night. He goes out to the beach, he’s out smoking with friends, and I’m here stuck with baby. Don’t get me wrong I fricking love my baby to the galaxy and back. But I wish I was able to have my own life back for just a day. Anybody else feels like this. I know everything happens for a reasons. Yes I might not have my old life back , partying drinking whatever. But this new life is molding me into the women I want to be. The women I NEED to be. I wonder if I’ll ever find the right one, but if I don’t that’s okay too.

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I am in the same situation. Nothing has changed in his world. I’ve pushed the responsibility on him as much as I can. Right now I told him he is taking the baby one weekend day a week. We alternate Saturdays and Sundays. So he had him this past Saturday so this weekend he has him Sunday. Then once baby is old enough, he’s taking him every other weekend. I miss my boy every second he’s away, but the break is needed.

I completely relate. My daughter’s dad is always out at the same bars I would frequent. I was someone who would be out every weekend Thursday- Sunday and loved the crazy party life. I do still miss it and get upset seeing everyone live their 20s from time to time but I much rather be home with my baby girl + I did go a little crazy and party enough that I won’t need to go out again till my 40s 😭😂

@Jessica yes, don’t leave ur baby with him while he’s still young god know what can happen

@Marshalinna when I’m 40 IM SMOKING A WHOLE BLUNT, CIGAR, EVERYTHING! Well not everything lol IM TURNING UP! But for now I’m living my soft life. I had to realize my baby needs me until they are old enough to fend for them selves

Oh I trust him 10000000% and anything that could happen would be an accident and the same could happen with me. Moms tend to hold on so much but the relationship my son has with his dad is just as important as that one he has with me, and so I want my son being comfortable going with him. Overnights is because he’s still breastfeeding and we’re locking in a routine. Once he’s a bit older and the routine built in, he can take him. But I do it for the baby, not because I don’t trust him. I WANT him to take him and be involved.

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