I’m so sorry you are going through this. Being a mama is hard. I did have a temper before pregnancy that I struggle with my whole life (got from my mom). Talking to someone like a therapist really helped. There are free resources to reach out to. I tried a few medications and they were all too much for me. Look into an OTC supplement 5HTP with calcium. I’ve taken them for 8 months and they help me think before acting. Hope this helps
Asked heal baby care app and sharing in case it helps: "I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way; it sounds incredibly overwhelming and distressing. It's important to acknowledge that postpartum rage can happen, and you're not alone in experiencing these intense emotions. First, I recommend finding a safe space to express your feelings, whether through journaling or talking to someone you trust. Additionally, practicing deep breathing or mindfulness techniques can help you regain some calm during those moments of anger. It's also crucial to seek support for your mental health, especially since you're feeling overwhelmed. Have you considered reaching out to a mental health professional or a support group for parents? They can provide guidance and strategies tailored to your situation. Remember, it's okay to ask for help, and taking care of yourself is essential for both you and your child."
I struggled with all three very early on postpartum. PPD & PPA & PPR. I immediately seeked help when I started noticing I was not me with a psychologist and a therapist that specializes in my postpartum. You are not alone ❤️