I'm literally going crazy

I'm sick and everything is a mess because I'm too sick to keep up with it all. I have 2 kids and not the support that I need. When my family offers to help watch them, I'm sorry that this is so ungrateful, but they keep my kids fed and happy, but they don't stop my kids from making messes, but they also would never help clean up a mess and they just kind of let them run rampant within the bounds of safety, but it's exhausting trying to make up for all the work that is left over from them watching the kids plus whatever work is created by currently watching the kids. I need help. I feel like my system is not effective and I feel exhausted and guilty towards my future self every time I have to rely on anyone else, but I don't really have a choice because I'm a single mom living in my mom's basement with my only other option being to return to my abuser.

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