Guilt
I spent the entire day before running around doing errands cleaning and trying to fix my washer machine, I stayed up trying to catch up on some reading even though I was absolutely exhausted. At some point in the night I was holding my baby to sleep facing the outside of my bed, usually don’t, and my baby rolled off onto the floor. She cried and cried and after I checked her and calmed her down I cried so hard because how could I let myself let her fall on the floor…. I’m crying now even as I write this. I feel like the shittiest mom ever and my husband looked at me like I had 20 heads and I know he’s probably just concerned for her but I know he’s probably cursing me out in the back of his mind. I’ve stressed so much getting her to sleep in her crib but he always jokes and say she didn’t need to, yet I’m the one always somehow holding her while she sleeps. …….
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I understand your guilt mama and you are valid! We’ve been there 💜 in the past, during Covid we didn’t have much money and I would need to go to other areas of the house for chores but wanted to leave my daughter in the room to watch tv. One time I made a fort for her on my bed and she fell and hit her head twice in one sitting. No shade to hubby but THEY always have some feedback but don’t be ready to step in and get their hands dirty (aka lose sleep, teach the child, play with them for more than 30 mins, etc) so we can get a few moments of peace or to get things done.
It’s so frustrating so I get it. Baby will be fine, just monitor them and how they sleep. My daughter is almost 6 now, her head isn’t lopsided or anything, but her daddy’s should be from my cast iron skillet! 😤
You are trying to do it all and having a baby isn't as easy as men think it is. Accidents happen because they are ...accidents. no one does them on purpose. I understand the guilt. Cry it out and then you got to do it all again tomorrow. Day and night. Doesn't stop. We don't get a break from it. The best you can do is look after YOURSELF first. If you are relaxed and not running around like a headless chicken you will feel better and can avoid these accidents.
If any chances of this happening again place some old pillows on the floor around the bed.just incase. I did so much stuff "just incase" around the house. You're doing great.
Hi this also just happened to me last night. I screamed when I heard the thud, grabbed him and cried more than he did. So traumatised and felt so guilty! How old is your little one? Mine is 10 months. I am lucky my partner told me not to beat myself up about it and tried to check our son over with me and call for advice. Thats the support you need in a moment like that and Im sorry you didnt receive it.
This happened to me as well. Even with the pillows on the floor, I was still distraught. Almost 3 years later I have 2 king mattresses on the floor that are 8 inches tall that we sleep on. No is falling off anywhere.
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