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Child arrangements

This may be a long one but I’ll try to keep it short.

My child’s dad and I split when our child was 2 months old and he’s now 8 months old.

For 3 months now we have an agreement (voice recorded) that he comes to see our son at my home (as he lives 2hrs from us) every Tuesday and Thursday (couple hrs after work) and every other weekend (8hrs each day).

As of late, the weekday visits have been constant arguing the entire time of the visit. I have said I’m happy to not talk but he is saying if someone is in the room with me I’m going to talk to them. Now to me this is a him problem because you’re here to spend time with our son no? Talk to / play with our son. Why do you need to talk to me?

So today when he came to my house I said going forward I think it’s best we don’t speak to each other as then we can’t argue. He said ok but then continued to speak to me / ask me questions. I removed myself from the room and went to cook my son’s dinner. Of course the electrics tripped so I went to the fuse box (which are located in a cupboard in the living room - where he was with our son) I start pulling stuff out of the cupboard to get to the box to be greeted with “do you have to be in here right now”. I replied yeah and then he got up to go to the kitchen with our son and on his was asked if I new what I was doing and I said yeah to which he replied course, no worries. To me that was a shitty comment as if to say course you know what you’re doing, like always type thing. So I followed him saying what do you mean course to which he then replied leave me alone in a very shitty deflated manor. So of course it escalated into an argument so I asked him to hand our son back to me and for him to leave my house as I don’t want this constant arguing around our son! He said he wasn’t giving him to me nor was he leaving the house. I tried to reach for our son and he was blocking me and pushing into me to get me away. Now our son is screaming and crying and I just want to comfort him and for his dad to leave.

I said about these weekday visits not working anymore and about stopping them. He turned around and said that I can’t do that because of the agreement on the voice recording.
I’m not on about stopping the every other weekend visits as they are fine and set hours of (10-6).
My issue with the weekday visits is that he never shows up on time (sometimes only gets half an hour with our son). And then the time that he’s with our son in my home, he’s sitting arguing with me?!

Does anyone know where I stand with this?
I’m getting really sick and tired of this happening constantly, it’s draining and I have anxiety pretty much the whole week because I know he’s coming and that there’s going to be an argument. I have taken the steps to not speak to him, I have said things like I’m not engaging in this conversation. But somehow I’m the problem? I’m starting to think perhaps I am the problem but I really don’t think I am?