Let's talk about it!!

now don’t get me wrong i love that my baby depends on me for comfort and needs me that much but sometimes it’s so overwhelming that my husband can’t/wont try to calm him. he’s told me since he was born that he’s just not that good with babies and he will be better when he’s older and i know that but it feels like i get no help at home. my husband works long shifts he’s not home a lot and on his days off i don’t ask much of him for that reason, i know he’s tired, but i feel like he thinks i have it easy. he’s always comparing how hard his job is and acts like i don’t work 24/7 pretty much. now he does try and soothe if he wakes up at night but he doesn’t have the patience and gives the baby to me within a few minutes saying he doesn’t want him he wants me. i’ve been trying to leave him with him to run an errand a few times and he calls me because the baby is crying and i need to come back. i try to tell him hes just not used to him like he is with me because he’s with me 24/7. i guess my rant is i feel like i don’t get a lot of help from my husband like i thought i would as our baby’s other parent. everytime i try to explain that to him he thinks im just calling him a shit father and says he’s doing the best he can. he provides financially so i can stay home which im so grateful for but i didn’t think that would mean i would still have to do everything. i clean the house, cook, do laundry and care for our 5 month old. part of me wants to stop doing chores so he sees how easy he has it. does it get better with a husband that feels like he can’t take care of a baby?

So there is an age difference between me and my man(im the older one😉) And his mom just doesn't get it. Everything is my fault, all our decisions about adding to our family(2 before him, 1 with him), etc We were living at his parents since our son was born and late April we had a miscarriage. I had finally felt like I could talk about it with her because she said that I was always feeling sick and maybe get checked by my doctor. I finally told her about our first ultrasound. It was a normal day(had some spotting early april) our ultrasound was on the 12th. The tech. Couldn't see a 12 week4 day baby and wanted to double check with a vaginal ultrasound just to make sure that it wasn't in a weird position, etc. I knew that something was wrong because I have never "spotted" with my other pregnancies. Got the call later in the day to tell us that we had miscarried. Our baby stopped growing at 6weeks4days. So I had a missed miscarriage. So back on my "mother-inlaw"(we are commin-law), I straight up told her on why I had been sick for the past couple of months. And ended it with that we miscarried. She started to yell at me, clapping her hands and told me to get the fuck out of her house. We moved in 2 days. She had sent me a text the next morning, apologizing for how she reacted but didnt say that I could stay. No support, nothing. Now I know that I have more heart than her because of how my bf tells me of how him and his brothers we raised, also I have seen it. Nothing is special, loving in that family. Even birthdays. Its called cake that no one eats together for, etc. So later in the day, I brought our son down from his nap, and he was all over his grandmother. She had asked on if I saw her text. I had replied that I had but im still pretty upset atm. She said well if you want to talk I can try and listen. Well, she gave me all the power to bitch about all the time I have lived there. I pretty much made her realize that she had been pretty shitty of a person. She didnt say much other than "okay, and go on" This woman takes online seminars and courses to be a help couch...but she cant apply her teachings to the loved ones she's around.

There is so much more that I haven't said about how it was living there for 1.5 years. All the side comments, hate, glares, etc.

How's everyone doing?

After having swollen gums for months and the on and off push up of the tooth. My girl has finally had her first tooth cut gum! The last 4 days were very long. Cluster feeding at night, crankiness in the day and overall just seeing my lil mama in pain 😢

I made breastmilk, apple and butternut squash pops for her to chew on. What is everyone's doing for teething?

OMG everyone! My 6 month old baby girl said MAMA yesterday 🥲🥲🥲 It was her first word. I was totally expecting Dada, but she just went and surprised me 🥰🥰

Has any one else's baby had their first word? What was it?