I just had my 2nd child and I'm struggling with ptsd, ppd, and ppa. I was very sick my whole pregnancy. My partner says he needs a break from me being sick and is going to leave and go out of town for a few days. I'm not mental well enough to be by myself, but lately he is always leaving me alone, never asks how I am, frequently says he needs "me time" and goes over to friends for hours. If I have a bad moment he gets frustrated with me. When I told him I felt like hurting myself he said he was going to call and have me put in the hopsital/an institution. I have no safe place with him when my mental illness gets bad. I feel like a huge burden on him and I'm suffocating in depression, intrusive thoughts, and anxiety. I'm waiting for a call from a postpartum therapist, and I've taken all the steps to get help. I don't understand how he can just leave me to fight this by myself when I'm sick from carrying and birthing and caring for our 2 children. He's left me all alone and made me feel like I'm sick on purpose. He tells me to think about him, or says "what about me? I'm important too" and makes me feel like shit when I do try to go to him for support. He has random moments where he will cuddle me, but as of late he's just eager to get the hell out of the house and to criticize or get frustrated when I'm down or anxious. He told me my thought processes aren't right, and that I react to everything poorly. I have no idea what to do anymore. I'm so scared. I can't battle postpartum ptsd, depression, and anxiety by myself.
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