fighting resentment
I love my husband so much but when I am breastfeeding at all hours of the night and i look over to see him sleeping i cant help but feel pangs of resentment. He works full time and I’m a SAHM so i literally WANT him to get his sleep, i choose not to wake him up for diaper changes or anything because he works hard outside all day and he needs to rest. Even so, illogically my brain just gets frustrated to see him sleeping when im waking up 3-7 times a night to bf.
Ive never liked or wanted kids and did not plan or want to get pregnant, so even though i love my baby i think when im so exhausted caring for the baby its also making me resentful. Everytime he says he is so tired i just want to drop kick him.
How do i manage this? or can you just tell me im not alone in it.
I really feel like he doesnt grasp how much work breastfeeding at night is and how exhausted it makes me.