I’m so confused

So me and my bd has been having problems and really just not been good for over a month but we live together . Through this journey I’ve really struggled with him showing me I actually matter to him . He’s done so many things that have broken my trust and essential I feel like he doesn’t have me as a first priority. In most situations he doesn’t consider how I would feel and he doesn’t take my side against his sister mom and even friends . He always goes with them instead of me . I’ve been with him for 4 years now and he’s just shows me he ls an ugly person . He always wants to show ppl my bad side . I’m not perfect but I hate that he wants to portray me as this bad person when maybe I do loose my cool but that’s for 5 mins majority of the time I’m really cool actually . So for the most part we’ve been not speaking and just walking past each other until he decided he wants to fuck . Then he’s pulling my clothes off forcing it in . I’ve told him I don’t like it but then he just threatens to go sleep with girls since I’m not doing it with him but he thinks that’s appropriate to talk like that to me . It’s just so sad , I told him I’m really done . I’m more than sex . He doesn’t want to put in the work to show me what I need to see But he will come and just use me for sex cause I’m conveniently Available. I’m not respected in any way . He hasn’t cheated as far as I know but he’s really sneaky so I wouldn’t put it past him . But I’ve been being really strong and trying to hide my emotions but it’s like everyone we sleep togetehr it’s just like idk I always break and try . I just keep trying to explain to him in so many different approaches how I feel and what he needs to do to improve but he always feels attacked . I tell him I’m more than just pussy like treat me right . Do the right thing but I realize he knows this already . He knows the right thing to do he’s just choosing to do the wrong thing . And that’s the thing he’s doing all these hurtful things that you cannot take back . But I keep putting myself in this cycle only to get hurt again . I have to keep hurting by myself and build myself up and create a plan to move on and it just all goes to shit cause we have sex and that’s all it will ever be I guess . He doesn’t do any proving to me . And yesterday I actually begged him to please make it work . I was crying and I asked him to stop doing what he was doing and meet me and make it right and he was hanging up on me and not answered I called back to back I was crying and begging and he told me no . He said basically I’m out of line asking him that. Never did he show any compassion for my sad / pain . Never said sorry but he did continue to scream and be mean in my moment of weaknes. He said we should just continue to do our own thing and be parents . Which is fine . I guess I just needed to hear those words . And i guess I just can’t believe that he is just okay with letting me go . He doesn’t see my value cause if he did he wouldn’t let me leave for another man to have me . But I don’t know what to do . A part of me wants to make it work but I know I deserve better . I live with him but I feel like I’m order to really move forward and work on my goals I need to move out . I want to go back to school I wanna get my own place in Utah so I can go to school and yeah . So I won’t have enough money saved up until probably next year cause I just started working. But y’all I’m really thinking of going no contact with him . I have a friend what might let me stay with him . But he’s trying to apply strings attached to it . And idk if I’m that desperate to do that . I just have so Many emotions