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I'm on my first cycle with fertility assistance (letrozole). We've been trying for 11 months now and I feel like we gave ourselves a really good chance of being pregnant this month.

I'm currently 7dpo and now I've got the aching feeling in my heart. Just like, "it's not gonna happen, you're a failure, you don't deserve this." I think I got my hopes up a bit and I'm just terrified it's going to be like the last 11 times. I've gotten so used to crying once I wipe and see blood. Just waiting for it to happen again as I've had zero symptoms at all. No implantation bleeding or little discharge, which were my big pregnancy symptoms.

I know it sounds dramatic but if this doesn't work I just don't know how I can keep going on. It hurts so fucking much. Please send me love or baby dust or literally a pregnancy spell. My heart hurts 💔

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Is this normal?

Is this little red bit on my section scar normal? It’s not oozing anything, doesn’t hurt but it’s the only bit on my scar like it so just curious! (19 days PP)
Thank you in advance! 🥰

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Anyone else felt like this?

Hi, I’m 4 months postpartum, little one sleeps through the night and is formula fed, the last week I’ve felt extremely tired and very hungry! Just wondered if anyone else has felt this way/experienced this?

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Help

I was getting pretty painful period cramps and during those, I had painful lower back cramps. I had these on and off for like a few hours so from about 10:30pm to 1am?

I’ve had no show, or anything like that.

Is this braxton hicks or early labour pains?

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Fed up

Anyone else just feeling fed up in general? I just never feel happy anymore. Wake up dreading what the day ahead of us will be like.
Little one will be 6 week tomorrow

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Early waters/pre term labour?

I can’t get checked until later today unfortunately. I can’t tell if I’m leaking/starting early. I definitely think I’m having braxton hicks yesterday and today.. i have some pain in my back but she is quite low down so hoping it’s just pressure, baby was a little quieter yesterday but she’s back to more normal movements today, but my underwear just seems to get so wet, especially after going to the bathroom. And I honestly can’t work out the smell, I’m pretty sure it’s just discharge/urine leaking but there’s that worry in my mind a little. Are there any other ways to know/check if it could be the start of it all?

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