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Mamas with depression, anxiety, and other mental health disorders

Feeling sad and alone

Feeling sad and alone, I'm struggling alot at the moment.

Please tell me I'm not going insane. But I'm struggling with everything except for being a mum. I can't handle being touched or around my husband.
It's the constant put downs and fights that's getting to me.

I try my hardest to make him happy, but every time it's never good enough. Never what he wants or isn't enough. He tells me I'm a shit wife and that I never make an effort. And or it's not what he wanted.

Like tonight to save fighting I just told him I was OK. But he kept questioning me. I told him I'm fine it's nothing it's just period cramps.

Next Min he starts yelling at e telling me that I'm a shit wife and that I have no respect for him and that, why are we even married because I couldn't tell him I was having cramps.

My thing was to me it's nothing. But he is acting like I was keeping things from him.
Keeps telling me were over and that he is leaving or moving out. Wtf do I do.

I've cried my self to sleep for the last couple of days.

He gets the shits that I don't sleep in our bed. Now I'm a very light sleeper and his snorning is ridiculous.. I've told him he should see a Dr. His answer it's your problem not mine.

But yet has a go at me telling me I don't love him because I don't sleep in the same bed. I literally get no sleep. I can go to bed before him get maybe 3hrs before he wakes me. I can't sleep like that.

I do everything around the house. I'm expected to go back to work this year. Because he refuses to. But has told me he refuses to do alot of the house duties, mop, sweep, do all the dishes, bathrooms, toilets and won't cook dinner either.

I just want to cry.