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moms in your 40s

Game Over, It's Game over man!!! Need advice.

Have you ever had an internal freak out like Bill Paxton from Aliens?
Well...that's where I'm at right now.
Let me explain.
So...I met this guy while I was hospitalized for my mental health.
When I initially saw him....my slutty senses started tingly. I didn't like it. It actually made me kind of angry...and uncomfortable. I was angry at him. Like it was his fault for being hot. WTF.
My boyfriend of 9 years died in November. This is too soon.
WHAT IS HAPPENING?!!!!
The staff even noticed I was a little off.
I went as far as asking to be moved to a different wing of the hospital.
I am pretty self aware...therefore I knew he would be a distraction.
He later came to me and said that he noticed I didn't like him.
I have strong personality. So did he. Ooooooh.
We started talking and became friends. I offered him a job at my job....because I thought he would be a good fit....honestly.
Before I left he through his number on my bed.
We have been talking back and forth ever since.
The problem is. He has a wife or girlfriend. But I am attracted to him.
Not sure if he is attracted to me...because honestly I think he is out of my league.
But he text me everyday.
I am not trying to be a homewrecker. But he is a good conversation and we have common mental health issues.
The reason for my "Bill Paxton freak out" is because he applied at my job and will probably get hired. Which means I will constantly be around him for 8 hours at least 3 days out of the week.
I'm scurred (scared)
WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO!!!!!