HeartBroken....
I have been up since 2am just crying. I am a single mother to a 9 month old babygirl and the past 9 months have been nothing but easy. Her dad is NOT active in her life and everyday it eats me up alive. We currently are going through court and custody and all of that good stuff. It hurts as a MOTHER because I know what he's doing. I know he's out here sleeping around, living the "good life" with his freedom. But at the risk of his daughters life. He has no emotions and doesn't care about anything but himself. I get up every day and work, care for my baby, etc. Its so unfair that it takes 2 people to create a baby but in a lot of cases its ONE parent who has to carry the load. I beat myself up everyday wondering if I'm doing the right things for my daughter, if she will feel happy and complete as she grows. I feel like I failed her. It was always my dream to be a mom and have a family and a partner who I felt would be there for me and support me. The older I get and the more I go through things and mother my daughter, the more I realize how this world works and some of the people in it. I wish her dad wasn't a POS. and actually cared about others instead of just himself. My daughter deserves a father but I can't continue to give him chances when he shows he doesn't want it.
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Going through this too. It’s so so hard.
I’ll share that for me, he’s a pathological liar and serial cheater and I had NO IDEA. We’re talking burner phones, gift cards, prostitutes the works and made me feel so safe and happy and convinced me to have a baby after three years of marriage. Had unprotected sex with 5 other women while trying for a baby with me 🤮 this same man now that I’ve kicked him out of the house STILL wants to be with me and constantly wants to see our daughter and be with her and around her every day which means I constantly have to see him and deal with him. And he’s living his best life, he comes and goes as he pleases to see her, he still gets all the free time he wants, goes to the gym, and guaranteed is sleeping so the other women and taking them on dates. Sometimes I wish he would just run away and leave us alone because of the pain of him being so happy and forcing this baby on me and the fact that he’s always right there. It’s like he’s running his happiness in my face. Meanwhile I’m mostly
With her, don’t get to go out or do anything. Grass isn’t always greener. I have similar feelings as you that I never imagined having a broken family and my worry about what it will do to her, I feel that it’s so unfair that he doesn’t care about that. I did try to forgive him when I found everything out and surprise surprise he did it again!! I wish he would just run off into the night sometimes. At the end of the day no matter how it dices out it’s always difficult
Ladies. So many hugs to both of you. There are good guys ( heck, good people.... Not just guys, and I'm not one to assume people are straight) out there. You are doing what you can for your children. Both of you are. Keep fighting, keep doing what you're doing. And keep reaching out for support from others.
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