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Kentucky

Overwhelmed and lonely

I am feeling overwhelmed right now. I’m 28 weeks pregnant in two days. I feel like everyone and everything is irritating me. Not on purpose but I just want to isolate more and more as I go through pregnancy. Ever since I can’t smoke the friends I was seeing all the time have pretty much become non existent. Namely the one friend I had grown really close with this past year. Work has been stressing me out a lot more recently. I have coworkers that don’t work near as hard as I do and I don’t see anything being said to them really unless I start to say something. I kinda just gave up recently and stopped trying as hard to get everything done and focus at work. I don’t feel appreciated there and I don’t feel appreciated at home either. I’ll come home from work and be worn out but of course I’ll still need to clean the house, do dishes, laundry, clean the bathroom. My back is killing me all day now and hearing “I’m so tired” from my husband just pulls on my nerves. I get it he does work a harder job than I do. He works more hours than I do. I have lupus and my body is always aching and tired and I feel like garbage day in and day out. I just want some support for a change. Someone to come by and check on me and how I’m holding up. Because currently I feel I will have to do mainly everything on my own. I cannot depend on my friends or husband for consolation in my time of loneliness. I just want to know does anybody else feel they are doing this all on their own?