I really understand both sides of the situation. I have had 2 miscarriages and an ectopic pregnancy, and watched both my siblings have babies during those difficult months when I was navigating pregnancy loss. It was so hard, filled with a lot of envy and confusion why it had to be me that never got her baby, I was also grieving the mother I thought I was going to be 3x over. However, I did work hard to differentiate my experiences and their experiences, so that I could be there for my sister and my SIL in the most life-changing journey there is, support them in the rollercoaster that is postpartum and love on their babies, knowing that they are the most important things in their world. I can see why she would be hurt that you missed those transformative years of her and her child’s life, however I do also understand the heartbreak and isolation of infertility and pregnancy loss. It’s so hard. So sorry you had to go through all of that 💕
I am so so sorry this has happened to you 😔 I’ve suffered multiple losses/unexplained infertility and a very close friend of mine has battled infertility and can not have children, but I gave her space and time to come to terms with my pregnancy/baby and didn’t push to see her unless she felt she could meet up. Infertility and losing babies is bloody hard and heartbreaking hence leaving the ball in my friends court as I would not want to lose her friendship. You did nothing wrong and I think you were respectfully honest and we all need to look after our mental wellbeing. Sending big hugs and hope you’re ok xxx
Thanks ladies! I appreciate you all taking the time to read my post and also all your replies. If I'm honest the old me ... the one who started out on the infertility journey could have put my own grief aside and been there for my friend. But after 5 years I just couldn't I was on my knees and couldn't see a way out of my sadness. We have been so close always so I thought it was a safe place to be honest with her and I loved her too much to fake it. The way her husband handled it ... to go to my husband to address his issue with me has left me feeling like she has no say. We live in a small town and I live in fear of seeing them. I know I'm a good person but they made me feel like a monster just for trying to put my own feelings first at a time where I was at my lowest. X
I absolutely relate and I’m so sorry your friend is treating you this way. When I had a miscarriage after ttc for a year and being told I had unexplained infertility… I was completely devastated, had intrusive suicidal thoughts and would sometimes feel out of control upset for hours after i even saw a pregnant person. I hear stories of people being able to put their grief aside and be there for pregnant friends or those with babies but I wasn’t capable of it- I could barely get through daily life. I told my pregnant friends that I love them, I’m not mad at them and they did nothing wrong, but that I needed space from them for a while. They told me they were sad but understood, and we’ve reconnected now. I did lose one friend who just couldn’t stop with her toxic positivity, and couldn’t understand the trauma of infertility combined with loss. We’ve apologized to each other but the friendship isn’t the same. Feel free to message me if you want to talk.
Sounds like the husband is abusive. You said you know he is controlling. It’s not normal for people in their mid 30s to have the husbands decide who their wives will be friends with. I wouldn’t worry about what you did and I’m so sorry you’ve lost a friendship - just stay open to if she ever comes to talk to you again. Unfortunately that’s all you can do in a lot of abuse cases.
Wow! I think that you were respectful and handled the situation VERY well, if someone wanted to FaceTime me to inform me they were pregnant 2 days after a miscarriage they would of got a very different reaction! It does sound like maybe the husband has influenced her, but the fact she’s chosen to block you now is awful - I wouldn’t lose sleep over this, if someone is choosing to treat you this way then they are not worth your time. I have personally had a long term friendship break down because she just was not the same person she was before and used to cause me so much upset, some times it is better to let them go xxx