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First time mums

Stress

I have been extremely stressed out, I mean I’m naturally a stressed out person but, lately it’s been far worse than normal. My main stress is finances. I have tried every which way of stretching our funds while I’m on maternity leave but I’m constantly struggling. I’m always worried and I’m currently a full time college student trying to get a better career that is higher paying to be able to support my family better. I feel like a terrible mom, I grew up in the hood or as some call the ghetto and now I live in the hood with my family. I don’t want my daughter to grow up as I did and I definitely don’t want her to commit crime like I did as a means of survival. I want better for my daughter, for my family in general. I am trying so hard to break the cycle and I know it’s not instant but I wish there were some instant gratification to what I’m doing because I feel like I ain’t doing nothing despite trying to better my life.

I guess all I needed to do was just rant it all out.