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I need advice. Judge me, don’t judge me idc I need someone to talk to. My husband and I have been married a month but we have known each other for 6 years. We have a one year old. Shortly after my one year old was born I broke it off with him, PPD, he cheated etc a lot of things. In the midst of that I started back talking to my first boyfriend ever who has always had a special place in my heart. But he would never make me his gf, it was almost like he played with my heart but he said he kept me at arms reach because he knew I would get back with my child’s father. It was just always something about my ex. Anyway I’m missing him right now but also in the back of my mind I’m saying he didn’t do anything for me besides have s*x with me.. I’m freakin out because I’m married now and I shouldn’t be thinking about another freakin man…. I’m so upset with myself

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First, no judgment, your human stop beating yourself. Your situation is hard, and I don't have much advice. other than give yourself a break and focus more on you and your little one. I know easier said than done, but it sounds like you're just a bit overwhelmed.

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No judgment here but the grass is never greener on the other side. Don't mess up your marriage because of the “what ifs” regarding your ex.

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It sounds like neither guy is beneficial to your mental health and it’s time to be alone for a while.
I mean, one is a cheater and the other is emotionally unavailable. Neither one is a healthy relationship. Maybe look into therapy for yourself to find better ways to deal with life. It might be time to work on yourself and get to a better place before looking at any relationships.

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